Why I stopped posting

     As you noticed I stopped posting updates about the surrogacy. Hyperemisis returned and I had a hard time mentally being able to post and stay positive.

     I did not tell anyone but I struggled with Prenatal Depression. Being so sick was very hard on me and my whole family. I felt as I was a failure. I signed up for the surrogacy, and I was having a very hard time even being able to be a mother to my two beautiful little girls.

     I cried a lot and resented the beautiful little boy I was growing. Therapy was so critical to me being able to finally being able to be in a good place at the delivery. (I will post my birth story on another post dont worry)

     I promise to post and update anyone who has been following on how the surrogacy finished!

32 week update

    Not much has been happening around here. I have had a few bad feeling sick days but I seem to be over them. It is hard to tell if it is Hyperemesis or a cold that caused me to feel sick but I am doing a bit better other than the occasional nausea (kinda my new normal)

    I should also let you know I am a little behind on posting these so I am actually 33 weeks now but this is the recap of 32 weeks.

How far along? 32 weeks

Total weight gain/loss? Still 9lbs down. Finally gaining a bit of weight back (seems to be all tummy) but I think my arms are still shrinking (no complaints here)

Maternity clothes? Yes. and starting to get sick of them.I think I am going to pick up a few new things to get me through the next month and a half.

Stretch marks? Still just the one little one on the side of my belly. I have been lotioning up my belly like a crazy person though, I have bottles of lotion just about everywhere throughout our apartment so I don't forget to put it on.

Sleep? I seem to be sleeping like a rock lately. I just fall asleep and only wake up to empty my bladder.

Best moment this week? We got an eviction date for this little one! I will be induced either May 18th or 20th if he doesn't make his appearance sooner.

Miss Anything? I am missing being able to get out of bed normally and being able to get off the floor by myself. I made the mistake of sitting on the floor and my husband may have muttered the words "I've fallen and I can't get up".

Movement? It is starting to go from crazy kicks to feeling like an alien is just moving around in there. He has gotten the hiccups a few times though.

Food cravings? Fruit and Avocado! I also would kill for some cotton candy (it is fine in moderation right?)

Anything making you queasy or sick? Smell of coffee, tacos, dairy, anything spicy, fast food, Ginger, Saltine crackers (ironic right?) chocolate.  I will just stop there because I could probably add 100 more things to this list.

Have you started to show yet? Well yes, I am now getting asked about the pregnancy and even got the first dreaded stranger belly touch... Don't worry I started to rub her belly too and she stopped lol!

Gender? Boy!

Labor Signs? Nope very inconsistent Braxton Hicks but nothing to worry about.

Belly Button in or out? In but getting pretty shallow...

Wedding rings on or off? On and still too big.My engagement ring actually fell off and I couldn't find it for a few days. Luckily Emma found it, she still wont tell me where though.

Happy or Moody most of the time? I would say mostly Happy with a lot of weepy. I cry over EVERYTHING. Yay hormones...

Looking forward to? Seeing S&J meet there little one!

30 week update

     I have not updated in awhile. I have been sick on and off, mostly off but when it is on, it is tough. I for sure have a belly now. So the is this one a boy comments have been happening a lot when I am out with my two daughters. 

     I have come up with a good response though, "Yes, but he isn't mine".  The responses from hearing about surrogacy have mostly been good but also a lot of shock. Most people only know of surrogacy from the crazy news stories or lifetime movies. I should tell you if you actually want to know about surrogacy those are not the places to learn about it. 

     Yes the reason there is so much green in that picture is it was a St.Patricks day picture. I have a belly that has finally "popped" as some people will say. I went from getting comments about how tiny I was and there was no way I was due in may to "you are due any day right?" comments. what is it about people commenting on a pregnant woman's size. It seems like I am always too big or too small in someone's opinion. Baby is growing perfectly so that is all what matters! 

How far along? 30 weeks
Total weight gain/loss? Still 10lbs down. But that is a pretty good gain from my lowest point
Maternity clothes? Yes. and starting to get sick of them.
Stretch marks? Yes. I have one little tiny one, I didn't think I would be able to get more my stomach is like a crazy road map BUT I ended up with one off to the side of all the others. 
Sleep? Not the best. It’s hard to get comfortable but my snoogle is helping . Also having to wake up and pee 3-4 times a night is no fun. And the heartburn this baby is going to have so much hair.
Best moment this week? Just watching my girls play, We have had some great weather so we have been trying to spend more time outside. 
Miss Anything? Sitting on the floor (I would never be able to get back up), margaritas (I am not a big drinker at all but I have had this craving for months obviously wont have one though).Movement? Yes. I swear he is doing flips in there. Food cravings? I have been wanting my dads potato soup, and fruit. Anything making you queasy or sick? What doesn't/Have you started to show yet? Safe to say yes.Gender? Boy!Labor Signs? Nope, (TMI) I did loose my mucous plug, but it can "grow" back so not really a sign of labor. Belly Button in or out? inWedding rings on or off? On and still too big.Happy or Moody most of the time? Moody, I cry over everything! Looking forward to? It is spring break so I get to spend lots of time with both my girls this week! 

22 week update

     I am still slowly getting better! This week I was even able to go out to lunch with a friend, it satisfied a craving I have been having for over a month! Cheesecake Factory ranch why do you taste so good? 

     My belly has very much popped I am in maternity pants (or yoga pants and leggings) 100% of the time. I can still wear some of my pre pregnancy shirts but I am being careful to make sure I don't strech them out. Also 90% of the time I just wear a maternity shirt. I am however having a hard time finding maternity tank tops I like so if you have any suggestions let me know! 

     Little belly buddy is so active he moves around constantly and is he is not happy with how I am sitting or laying he makes sure to let me know! He has been passing every single kick count with flying colors! We haven't even got to 30 minutes while waiting for kicks! 

     

      You see that^^^ my belly is finally growing and growing! My husband told me the other day wow you actually look pregnant. I am excited to finally have a noticeable belly! On the other hand I did have my first stranger touching the belly experience. Don't get in my bubble without asking. Chances all I won't tell you not to touch, just give me the chance to decide if you are creepy or not lol! 

      The parents are in the middle of doing all their paper work so they can bring this little boy home with them! So much legal aspects when it comes to surrogacy. They are also starting to set the coming for the birth plans! It is a little crazy to think that this little one is over half way done cooking. We are also almost at viability! 

21 weeks and counting...

     So now I am in my 21st week of pregnancy and that means the start of my 6th month. Time is just flying by. 

     This little one is growing and kicking every single day! He seems to be having a dance party everytime I try to go to bed. 

     I am still having bad days, in fact I spent most of yesterday in bed and got 100% of nothing done. But most days I am ok. Still dealing with nausea but it slowly getting better. 

     I am tired all the time. Feeling a bit left out of the 2nd trimester boost of energy. I have been taking advantage of Emma still taking naps and have been joining in on nap time. 

     I had to go out and get new maternity clothes all of the pants I bought in the beginning are swimming on me now. But it feels amazing to have pants that fit again. Plus I don't have to do the hair tie trick anymore so that is a plus. 

     No new stretch marks but to be honest I don't think there is room for any new ones lol.   

     

     I do have a little bit of a belly now. At 21 (almost 22) weeks I am still in the is she pregnant or is she fat stage. I have to admit I am so looking forward to having the big belly! Not so much strangers touching my belly though. 

      Have you ever had strangers touch your belly? I had a lady try to lift up my shirt in the middle of the store once.

Half way done!

     Here is the 20 week update! The last week has been pretty exciting finding out that belly buddy is a boy! So I finally get to carry a boy! With this being my last pregnancy it was kinda interesting to see how different carrying a boy is.

     We are officially 20 weeks pregnant! Time has gone so slow but flown by so fast. I can hardly believe that in just 20 or so weeks S&J will be welcoming their baby boy into this world. 

     Finally I am have a little bit of a belly! I may or may not be helping my belly look a little bigger by taking this picture after dinner... 

It's a....

     This baby is a feisty one! Belly Buddy didn't want to show us what we needed to see so I got to flip every sort of way, and belly buddy even flipped us off before we got all the pictures we needed.

     After an hour of flipping this side to that side we got all the angles we needed AND we found out.... 

     Yep S&J are going to have a baby boy! 

     Congrats S&J I can not wait until you get to meet your little boy!!!