9 week update!

How far along are you? 9 weeks and 1 day!

Total weight gain/loss: I now down 15 pounds... Shoot how did happen I have actually been able to eat again....

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. Other than when it is time to sleep, then I am wide awake.

Best moment this week: I got to celebrate a friends birthday but I found out I can't deal with drunk people lol...

Have you told family and friends: Yes

Food cravings: Fruit, Salads, Pizza rolls, Mashed potatoes, and bagels with cream cheese.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Still just about everything is making sick still but I am starting to feel a bit better.

Have you started to show yet: I think it is safe to say I am showing.... (even if it might just be Med bloat)

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried.

Wedding rings on or off? On and getting looser

Happy or Moody most of the time: MOODY, but mostly weepy I cry all the time at everything.

Weekly Wisdom: Bars are not as fun when you are the sober one...

Milestones: 9 weeks We have our second Ultrasound on Friday so keep a eye out for a update Friday or Saturday!

Maternity clothes? I am using the few left over things I have from the girls pregnancies and go shopping this week because I need clothes that fit!

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet - way too early.

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.

8 week update

My belly buddy is over half a inch big now!

It is just crazy how fast that little one is growing! 

How far along are you? 8 weeks today!

Total weight gain/loss: I am still down 12 pounds, no change from last week.

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. Other than when it is time to sleep, then I am wide awake.

Best moment this week: I went a whole day without puking this week.

Have you told family and friends: Yes if someone doesn't know they have been living under a rock.

Food cravings: Fruit, garlic bread, Olive Garden salad, Strawberry Lemonade Powerade.

Anything making you queasy or sick: What doesn't make me feel sick... Pickles, The smell of any and all mexican food, anything sweet, even seeing raw meat, chicken, pasta, cheese, milk, well anything dairy.

Have you started to show yet: I look like I ate a big lunch.

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried.

Wedding rings on or off? On and getting loose.

Happy or Moody most of the time: MOODY, but mostly weepy I cry all the time at everything.

Weekly Wisdom: Not even Zofran works all the time.

Milestones: 8 weeks! Only 4 more weeks until we are out of the first trimester.

Maternity clothes? I am using a Belly band and just wearing my longer shirts. I did break out one pair of maternity Jeans though.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet - way too early.

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.

7 weeks Pregnant!

My Belly Buddy is the size of a Blueberry! 

He or She is finally half an inch long! 

How far along are you? 7 weeks today!

Total weight gain/loss: I am down 12 lbs now thanks to my lovely friend morning sickness. Yes I am on Zofran but it just makes me not throw up, it doesn't make me feel better I am still having a hard time stomaching food.

Sleep: I am ALWAYS tired. I oversleep, I take a nap at any chance I get.

Best moment this week: Going to the ultrasound and seeing a baby and a heartbeat! It was amazing to actually see S+J's baby.

Have you told family and friends: Well I think it is pretty safe to say everyone knows by now...

Food cravings: Fruit, Milk (even though I can't keep it down), BBQ potato chips, and Ceasar salad, good chili, and pasta!

Anything making you queasy or sick: What doesn't make me feel sick... Pickles, The smell of any and all mexican food, anything sweet, even seeing raw meat

Have you started to show yet: I am in the my clothes don't fit and I look like I had a really big lunch phase, I am using a belly band and the "Hair tie trick".

Gender prediction: I am thinking it is a girl just because that is all I have ever carried. In all honest I have clue...

Wedding rings on or off? On and getting loose.

Happy or Moody most of the time: MOODY! But working on trying to be happy.

Weekly Wisdom: No matter how well you think you are feeling and how much it sounds good, DON'T DRINK MILK.

Milestones: We are at 7 weeks, and we officially know it is one baby! Yay for first ultrasound.

Maternity clothes? I am using a Belly band and just wearing my longer shirts. I did break out one pair of maternity Jeans though.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Movement: Nothing I can feel yet - way too early.

 Labor Signs: Noooo. Wayyy too early!

Belly Button in or out? In, very very in.


     If there is anything you think I should add to this little questionnaire just comment and let me know! I am more than happy to add more questions if you want to know anything else!

The stressful side of surrogacy

     I have posted a lot about excitement and nerves, but I have not posted about the stress of surrogacy, and trust me there is a lot of stress to go around.

     While I do not regret doing this for a second I also did not know how much stress I would put on myself. Stress for each doctors appointment hoping my levels are right, or my lining is thick enough, then stress of something that I could do might mess up the transfer, the worrying about if my beta (hcg) numbers were high enough.

     Then there was the ultrasound. I know the parents wanted two babies. How could they not? So I was hoping and praying and wishing that there would be two in there. I convinced myself that there had to be two. Then there was one.

     Don't get me wrong I am so excited that there is a healthy baby with a healthy heartbeat growing inside of me for the parents. I am ecstatic for them.

     But in a way I feel like failed them. I feel like I let them down by only one of the embryos sticking.

     Everything was textbook, I did everything exactly by doctors orders never missing a pill or a shot. Yet I am sitting here wondering if there was anything I could have done differently.

     The funny thing is I never once stressed so much in either of my pregnancies. I just know that so much is riding on this being a healthy baby, and I want to make sure that they get a perfect healthy child.

     I know calm down you shouldn't be stressing while you are pregnant and I am working on that I have been working on relaxation techniques and have even been doing some progressive relaxation and guided imagery (when I can get the apartment quiet enough to do it).

    Surrogacy is a bit harder than I thought it would be. I never never been this sick in my life. I am so tired of having to give myself shots. But I just keep telling myself it is all for J&S. The look on their face when they first see their baby, and helping them become a family is my end goal!

Ultrasound has happened!

Today we got to make the drive up to ORM again. It is Ultrasound day! 

    What does Ultrasound day mean at 6 weeks 4 days pregnant? Well we get to see if it is one or two. We get to hear the heartbeat, and do measurements to make sure that all the dates are lining up.
 

I know that you don't care about the writing so here are some pictures

Yep that is one little baby! 

Meet my little Belly buddy for 34 more weeks!

Heart beat was 127! That is a great heartbeat and we are very happy with the results!

     I know that a lot of you will be shocked that it wasn't twins BUT as long as there is a healthy baby everyone is happy!